This time I might seem a little bit different. But that's OK, because I feel kinda fine today :)
For quite a long time I'm staying at home. No no, don't think anything wrong, I passed my exams and so I had 3 weeks of holidays. So I'm here, back at my hometown thinking, how wrong I was.
In a beginning of Autumn I thought, that I belong here, I had no friends in Vilnius and I was all alone, and now I sadly realize that it's kind of the same here. No one is waiting for me here, well maybe my little brother only. I'm the best friend of my own. It's strange, but I don't feel sad at all. :)
All those, who seemed to be my friends are not so important to me anymore and I dont seem to be important to them also. Probably, mostly because I left and they stayed, they kept going whit their lives and I did too. Thats normal.
One of my new friends sayed, that she feels like she changed a lot. Those words had me thinking if I changed. And you know what? I did not :) Leaving small town and moving to capital city did not leave any marks on me, I am still the same. Still a childish funny headles lazy bastard, doing what I want, saying what I want, and mostly - not giving a f**k.
While it's freezing outside I stay at home and not even tip of my nose goes outside the door. I love being at home, because there are so many places to do nothing! When the ice cold wind is tearing everything I just cuddle with my cat and a warm cup of tea. I don't feel lonely anymore. The less people there are - the less lonely I fell! Yey!
Being at home rocks!
I am fine. At least for now. :)
2014.01.29
